This will be my last ever blog entry, but I felt that I should let everyone know who has been reading my blog over the last year about everything that has happened since I last wrote here in September.  

My mom’s funeral went really well, as well as a funeral can go that is.  It is always a very sad occasion because we will no longer see her here on earth.  Fortunately we are Christians and we will see her again after we die.

Early in October I went to

Las Vegas and met the man of my dreams.  We are planning on getting married in June 2006.

Several members of my family are really worried about this.  I’m not sure why, they may think that I am moving too fast since my Divorce.  However, they forget the fact that I have spent the last 10 years in a dead marriage and have had time to mourn what I have lost over that period.  Therefore, the initial shock of him walking out on me was the only real loss I had in 2004.  

It did come as a shock, because I never believed he would leave me, but deep down inside it didn’t really surprise me, because I knew what he had planned all along.  That was part of his going to while we were living at his mothers in 2003.  He left me in a situation where he knew I was unhappy and expected me to walk out on the marriage then.  He never realised how committed I was and am to marriage or anything else for that matter.

Another thing my family is worried about is that we might be planning on having children.  Well, we have discussed this issue and decided that we will take precautions to stop it, but children are not in our plan at this stage.  We are both 45 and feel that to have a baby would be unfair on the child because we would be 60 when the child was 15.  We may decide to adopt later, but having our own children is not in the plan, unless God decides differently.

They may also be worried because I met my future husband on-line.  Well we already have one marriage in the family that occurred from this type of meeting.  They have accepted her and they will, eventually, accept my man.

He came to visit me for Thanksgiving and we went up to see relatives in another state.  He fit in really well with my family so well that it felt like he has always been here and was always meant to be part of my family.

When I went to see him for Christmas and New Year I left my dogs with friends in a very secure yard.  One of them got out and got run over.  The only way for her to get out was to climb the fence.  Well, these things happen. It was and is sad, because she was the dog that got me through the initial stages of Paul leaving me and she was also the dog that always slept with me.  The other two dogs have become outside dogs and don’t really want to be in the house anymore, except occasionally at night to say hi and have a cuddle.  They never want to sleep in the house.  One day I will have puppies and then I will have another house dog, but not until I get married and am living in my own house with my own yard where the dogs can run free and they can have a dog flap so that can come and go as they please inside and out.

Hope everyone is doing great and just to let you know that I have never been happier than I am right now.  This new man in my life has made me so happy, he makes me laugh and he makes me feel like a young woman again.  Every time I think about him I get butterflies in my stomach.  When I go to visit him and see him at the airport my heart misses a beat.  He fills all my dreams and I think about him all the time.  I constantly find myself smiling at the oddest times during the day, simply because I have been thinking about him.  I have never felt this way about anyone else.